^^

AH~!!! happy happy happy~!!! two happy things happen when i was in ogL camp...

okiE.. abt the camp.. i find it was great.. so yah.. heE..

back to the happy things that happen...

on 29th march.. when we were having our camp performance... zeKai forwarded a fren msg to me.. althou is forwarded.. but damn happy le... first time recieve a msg from him... as in not a reply.. but is he initiate de.. so.. i'm DAMN happy.. heE... ^^

then on 30th march.. last day of camp.. while we were having breakfast.. i saw gabriel... and he smiled and nodded to me~!! ar~!!! heart melt le... happy~!!! haha... of cuz i smiled back.. ariel saw and she was like.. "huiEn~!!!!" haha... happy larz.. yesterday smiled for the whole day larz.. heE... happy a not?

ariel was also like.. "huien ar... he know how u look like?" heE... good.. he remembered me.. at least he not dao like zekai? but i got zekai's number.. and sometimes still got msg him mahz.. so.. happy bahz... muz be able to be satisfied... ^^

okie bahz.. gtg le.. pack bag.. goin to shanghai... be back only when sch reopen that day.. oops.. =x

i want to learn to hate zekai and give him up...

currently listenin to: zui hou de zhan yi by jay chou.

i want to learn to hate zekai and give him up...

HOW?

haiz...

their exam finally ended.. the start of the journey to heaven... hell was so terrible.. i'll treasure my new lease of life...

hopefully.. a new sem.. a whole new me..

zekai.

-siGh-

i saw zekai when i was walkin to sports hall.. i could have let him see me gettin out of my mom's car... but because i saw arieL and gang.. i stopped and meet her.. yah.. and because i really wanna go to the toilet.. *everybody shd know my bladder spoil le..* arieL ask me walk faster to catch up wth zeKai.. and she walked me t over take him.. thus.. haha.. he can see me in my short skirt.. haha.. -.-

anyway.. i was lookin at his table aorund that area.. he sits very far from me.. cuz media studies and sports and wellness are so far apart... by 10.40... i saw him standing up.. and leaving his seat.. hmMm.. keep lookin at him.. and k-siao writing on my paper.. i think he 'felt' me seeing him.. so he was seeing me and i was seeing him.. *PAISAE~!!* and then i k-siao writing again.. and when i turned again.. he saw me.. -.- wat the hell.. haha... maybe he wasnt lookin at me? i was juz paranoid? hmMm... yah...

hmMm... seriously.. i dunno wat's so good abt him.. juz yesterday.. when i went back sch to study.. huiyi had smsed and called me to tell me she saw him rubbing on a girl's back.. maybe she old le? need massage? zekai is juz being nice.. but why ALL GUYS are such flirts? cant stand.. -siGh- haiz... yah...i heard ken's attached... poor huiyi is in her crazy mode juz like me..

juz now niSa say she was readin my this bLog.. so..

HELLO NISA~!!!

haha... heE... she was sayin why i keep talkin abt gabriel.. haha... on my first day paper of people and supervisory.. i was lookin at the back of the sports hall.. the upstairs one.. and i thought i saw gabriel.. haha.. maybe i'm seein images? haha.. my mirage.. hmMm... then that day got ppl burp so loudly.. haha..

gabriel still din know who am i.. -siGh- but i've seen him so many times le.. hmMm...

Lemony's unfortunate events is great.. i love the baby twins.. ^^

there's nobody... nobody at all..

on friday.. i saw gabriel.. but i doubt he will ever know me is me.. and i doubt he will ever smile and say, "oh.. so u are huien.." and give me a big sunshine smile..

life isnt wat it always seems it was to be right? amber's birthday was great.. and.. i really dunno what i really want..

sometimes.. i really regret my actions..

huiEn.. ask yourself.. are u happy? or u lucky? or shd i juz directly ask myself.. am i "xing fu"?

you are regrettin ur life.. and everyday is juz a pain..

my exam was.. i felt horrible.. but i din dare tell anybody.. i'm scared i will flunk.. and now.. i'm not even studying my finance or principles.. and i have spent so much time on a common sense exam.. -siGh-

wat shd i do? there's is nobody to tell me how..

oops.

oops. =x

Huat ah$$$!!!! says:
i was in the gym
-eNeLephant™- © **http://swlostprincess.blogspot.com says:
oh..
-eNeLephant™- © **http://swlostprincess.blogspot.com says:
u still have tep?
Huat ah$$$!!!! says:
u like gabriel of sw right?
Huat ah$$$!!!! says:
nope
Huat ah$$$!!!! says:
finish long ago
-eNeLephant™- © **http://swlostprincess.blogspot.com says:
huh?
-eNeLephant™- © **http://swlostprincess.blogspot.com says:
yah.. that was wat i think...
Huat ah$$$!!!! says:
gabriel now having attachment in the gym
-eNeLephant™- © **http://swlostprincess.blogspot.com says:
?
Huat ah$$$!!!! says:
u can see him everyday in the gym
-eNeLephant™- © **http://swlostprincess.blogspot.com says:
wat u saying?
-eNeLephant™- © **http://swlostprincess.blogspot.com says:
???

and his status went away.. =x

gabriel and zekai

hmm.. last night i saw gabriel online finally.. and asked if he saw me.. but he say he did not.. but then i remember in the day he got looked at me.. and then look away.. and the "look" din seem so.. erm.. juz a glance.. haiz.. if he say he din see me.. there's nth that i can say. -siGh-

hmMm.. yah.. more abt in sch.. haha... furhan so funny sia.. kanna conned by me.. with all my laughings.. he was so paranoid.. haha.. hmMm.. =p

and wat else.. yah.. i smsed zekai and he got reply.. aw.. our first sms was on the chelsea and barcelona match.. -.- aiyoh.. and he really gave me the wrong number at first.. is he cock hand, no i cock eye.. haha.. hmMm.. i suddenly think becoming frenz in so much cooler than being yah.. hmMm...

Gabriel

oops... i saw gabriel today.. and i looked so pathetic then.. cuz i was waiting for nisa.. aiyoh.. so paisae....

wat the hell..

hmMm.. wat the heLL... bree's body is so nice for some middle age aunty.. wow~!!! i wanna go on diet~!!! major major.. shall not eat any tidbits and soft drinks.. only plain water and fruit juice and small meals in between.. and i wanna go gym~!! and yah... i want to be slim~!!!

aiyah... i'm desperate le la.. if there is a desperate gals.. i can go act lorz... haha.. hmMm... damn actresses for having such nice bodies... goodness.. now so jealous.. argh...

hmMm.. abt kai.. hmMm.. we din email as often as we did le.. and eh.. my phone line juz got called today.. cuz my mom din pay my bills... 300 over bucks lehz.. aiyoh.. haiz... how did i call? stress... my sis aint home tonight.. she had some camp... shd be celebratin cuz she's not home..

i'm a bit cold blooded.. i become happier if there are lesser ppl at home.. hmMm.. argh.. why my mom din pay my bills...

if not i would have smsed him.. haiz.. -sigh-

i swear i'm no more thinkin of that bastard... i swear.. hmMm.. abt another person.. the 'he' in the previous post.. well.. i dunno if it supposed to mean anything.. but.. he is attached.. and juz a good fren mahz?

damn.. wat the hell am i thinkin.. shall go n slp now..

ciaoZ...

a reluctant post.

die le la... did i say the wrong thing? why will such a thing happen ar.. aiyoh...

he: this one is nice..good good..cute!
me: cuz got chao ta lo ti..
he: why u wanna make tat as ur blog skin??
me: cuz.. eh.. why cannot! see cute then use lo~!!
he: cuz u like me?
he: or love me?
me: yah yah~ i like you a lot~!!
he: really ah? must i break wid my gf to be with u?
me: so wat u doin now? so bored.. no mood to study..
he: hey ...u haven ans my qns?u really like me?tell me honesty....
me: eh.. uh.. ah..
he: ?
me: can dun answer?
he: oh ok lo.. up to u...

haiz.. how? hmMm.. i do not like him.. correct? ppl.. tell me...

fallin for the wrong ppl..

die.. i think i dun wanna fall again.. cuz the pit is bottomless...

zekai's number..

yah.. forgot to announce.. i have zekai's number le... i guess it's better to remain as frenz... yah...

and nisa really made me regret so much last night suddenly... hmm.. wat shd i do?

-arGh- i cant add pics.. how do i play around with msn_space~!!!

to wenyan..

erm.. i dun really know how to function this thing here.. so i will use this new post to reply wenyan.. hmMm...

yah.. so angry lorz.. my whole day was down yesterday and i was thinkin and reflecting... i was thinkin of this topic ever since zekai replied me that ariel was cute and yah... another fren told me a fren had a crush on ariel.. that's why we will know him.. hmM.. -sigh-

wenyan.. izzit better to use blog or msn space? hmm.. this one got nth... a bit... feel naked.. haha.. hmMm..

sianz.. been missing a lot of things.. wenyan.. can we go out one day? miss a lot of ppl.. yah..

a flu..

wow.. today i add the most entries in a day.. hmm.. this is when u have nth to do,and have no mood to study for the whole day..

yah.. zeKai is down with a flu.. so ke lian? haiz.. this is a blog for me to scold..

haha.. serve him right.. that is for him rejectin me.. despite my efforts... goodness.. i hate this feeling..

moulin rouge is on tv now.. my all time fav.. so sad.. true.. the greatest thing in life u ever learn is to love, and be loved in return..

blogspot vs msn space

i think msn space and blogspot is so diff.. not so used to seeing neat diary entries.. and yah.. hmMm..

yah.. to clarify some things to ppl who seen my secret blog here... zekai did not mention ariel's name.. juz said ur cute cute fren very cute.. yah.. if he says short, we might guess it can be deanna, cindy or joelle.. but he said short short.. so.. yah.. juz now my another fren also said the ariel is cute.. cuz he saw the pic i made with the other three gals? the "huien- the tall one", "deanna- the idol-crazy one", "yansze- the sporty one", and lastly.. "ariel- the small one".. yah...

i even question myself... whether i have more friends because i was with ariel.. hmm... lincoln said yes.. i'm not goin to talk to him in future.. -.- so mean.. liddat say... if yes.. then i dun need u as a fren.. cuz i believe i have my own set of fren who are frenz with me because of who i am... yah...

this blog here is for me to complain abt my monotonous life... haiz.. i regretted giving joy up... guess it's too late now.. sorry... sorry boon chong... if time get be turned back.. will he give me the chance? i doubt so.. haiz.. -siGh-

she sucks

i got a fren who is gettin on my nerves...

a pri sch fren whom i regretted addin.. shucks.. first she copied me and put her blog add on her nick on msn.. then now.. she is introducin this guy to me whom she says is very good lookin.. wat the.. she makes me feel so desperate? wat the hell..

zekai

haiz.. that night was one of my saddest... cuz he say ariel is cute.. no doubt ariel is very cute.. but dun need to say to me then missin in action in our virtual world rite? haiz.. sigh.. i shall say here loudly.. since i think nobody will see this..

TAN ZE KAI~!! YOU ARE A ASSHOLE~!!! why do i have a crush on you and waste so much of my time.. haiz.. i realize there were so many ppl outside that are so much more better.. like joy.. but i gave him up.. haiz.. sigh.. he made me regret now..

zekai.. what is so good abt you? u are juz some idiot who looks ugly.. is short.. and eh.. and eh.. a flirt~!! -sigH-

feel like crying again le la.. aiyoh.. i hate this feelin.. sucks man..

i always fall for the wrong ppl.. when will i wake up from this dream?

i like him.. he likes her.. love is always a circle..

he likes some other gaLs.. sad... shd i be sad? i dunno.. haiz..